Ah...

I see I'm going to have to write in Word 1st, then cut and paste since it doesn't work the other way around.

Gotcha.
Will do.

That's sure to make it much less likely that I will be posting lots.
or maybe ever.
good to know.

Jumping right in

I've tried this before.
It didn't work out.

The initial impulse wasn't strong enough to sustain itself and I lost interest and moved on.
I've been reading "Clublife"
It made me think of my experiences working in a sex club in Los Angeles.
I thought it might be nice to start a blog where I could write about things from beneath the warm blanket of anonymity.

I don't know how I feel about anonymity.
On the one hand, anonymity perpetuates the need for anonymity (behaving as though you're ashamed of your thoughts can make you ashamed of your thoughts and cause others to think their thoughts are shameful, too.)
On the other hand,
you can't get over that shame until you can find a way to honestly look at the thoughts that shame would have you ignore.
Anonymity provides a "safe" space in which to unpack these thoughts
so we can look at them.
The idea being that anonymity, if used correctly, will eventually make itself (or the need for anonymity) obsolete.
The way visiting a nude beach is supposed to help destroy body shame.

The world is (seems to be) unsafe for honesty because people believe the world is unsafe for honesty
and honesty seems rare because it is hidden.
Does this thought have anything to do with anonymity?
I don't know anymore.

my head hurts.
i think what i am trying to say is that...
I'm hoping this blog will help me figure out what the hell I'm trying to say.
Then maybe communicating those ideas will be easier.

I don't know what I think till I write it down or say it out loud
and often not even then.

Wow. I could maybe have written "DON'T READ THIS BLOG" a hundred times and saved myself some effort.
My 1st instinct is to delete this. start over.
or to just forget the whole Sunday afternoon inspired
just another way to avoid laundry and the "real" writing i should be doing
thing.

Fuck it.
maybe the good (useful) posts will come later.

editing is bullshit.
this is how my mind works (at this moment in time).
tomorrow it may (will surely) be different.

Welcome to my blog.
Make yourself comfortable.
That'll make one of us.